I'm back again...
I feel like I'm so useless...
Always made her mad...
Said wan her happy always but I didn't make it...
I feel so disappointed for myself...
I hate myself....
Why I can't give her happiness??
Why why why??
Maybe I'm the bad one...
That's why I can't give her happiness...
What should I do???
I really want she happy....
But how???
Give her freedom ma???
Always go out till late late???
What about me???
If she always do that then I think our relationship will end soon...
And after that I'll thanks for her friend...
Because of her friend spoiled our relationship...
But I really don't want end the relationship....
Coz I know I really love her...
Can't live without her...
If one day really something happen to her...
I 100% will find her friends and fuck them out...
Because of those friend make my wife in trouble...
Like what my wife said me last night...
I'm not a human...
I'm an animal...
I'm pretty sad after I heard this...
But I admit...
I'm not a human...
I'm an animal...
I got no heart...
My heart made by metal...
If my heart keep crying crying crying...
One day my heart will berkarat...
Then slowly slowly slowly got a hole....
Then it will broken forever....
And my heart won't be appear in this world anymore....
It will disappear forever...
I really want to know why no one can understand my feeling???
They only care about theirselves...
What about me???
I'm a weak people....
Easily to get hurt one...
Peoples......
Y u all fucking crazy one...
Mj dead and u alllllll cry like shit...
Africa there everyday got people die and u guys never ever cry for them...
Maybe some only for those who care about Africa...
Is this too bloody over???
Same as like me....
I'm one of African...
No one care about me...
I alive or no alive also no one will care about me...
Really sometimes I ask myself...
What's the point of living in this world???
Why I born in this world for???
I knw my family is not a complete family...
Like last time in malaysia, Dad n mum almost everyday argue argue...
But what can I do???
Just keep quite n cry in my heart...
Keep asking myself...
Why my family got this problem???
I just want to have a good n happiness family...
But how come God gave me a family like this???
Everyday argue argue...
Dad n me always argue as well...
Why why why???
Please give me answer!!!!