guess what?
today...
my heart totally can't concentrate at all...
only think about wai kuan wai kuan wai kuan...
eventhough i pray as well..
i told God...
'God..
please don't break us...
i really really really love her...
i can't live without her...
that's because i know U sent her to me...
i know before that i treat her quite bad...
eventhough recently also...
i did everything just want she safe and we can communicate always...
but she doesn't like it..
so what can i do??
just give her freedom???
if i reelly give her freedom then i think i'll going to be crazy soon...
Lord...
please teach me how to do....
please...
i just want together with her forever...
please...
don't break us....
please please...
i really love her...
i hope she will marry to me...
i'm ready to meet her parents but she havent...
God...
please give her a strong heart...
then i hope we will marry soon...
please help me God...'
i hope God really heard what i said...
i really love wai kuan...
eventhough i did all the stupid thing, thats all because of her..
because of i love her...
i pray untill i want to cry...
but i cannot cry in the church...
i scare my parents and others aunty uncle see then not good...
i just secretly cried in my heart...
and...
i got a little bit tears out..
and i quickly wipe it...
hope no one see it...
seriously today i can't smile at all...
i just pretend that i'm normal...
just now..
i slept in the car...
that's because im really really really tired...
i needs energy to accompany her...
but i think tonight she will sleep early...
so...
consider GG for me..
no sleeping pill again...
this morning i was sleeping and i dreamed something horrible...
about me n her...
but i can't remember what is it...
and i hope this wont happen please...
God...
please protect my relationship please...
don't let evil spoil it...
please....