我又回来了。
好久没上blog了。
这次带来了很多很多不开心的事。
为什么这世上那么多撒旦呢？
我只是想有个开开心心的恋爱。
为什么撒旦总是要去搞破坏？
虽然我们基督徒时常说耶稣在我们的心里。
为什么我就是觉得耶稣不在我的心里？
为什么我的生活就好像没有平安？
为什么我想要做一件事都那么难？
头脑里就是为什么？为什么？
为什么我活在这个世上呢？
我的快乐？
我的生活？
我的家庭？
我的一生？
我的人生？
我的一切？
都被撒旦搞毁了。
上帝，我真的很需要你在我的心里。
帮助我一切。
我只希望可以跟我的宝贝生活的快快乐乐。
还有宝贝。
我真的很爱很爱你。
你在我的心里永远都是第一的。
我不里谁说我的坏话。
有一天他们会有报应的。
他们说过什么迟早一定会发生在他们的身上。
宝贝我是很累很累了。
可是怎样累都好我都会等你睡觉的。
我不会把你一个人丢在那里的。
BB.. I really so jealous how you treat your friend..
it's totally different how you treat me...
why everything we just argue argue or scold me scold me...
then how you treat your friend?
listen to them.. what they talk cock you also listen only...
every time... I call you..
what will you tell me? 'I don't wan to talk to you or I want to hang up...'
then when friend call you...
you hehe haha there..
and me.. like a bodoh...
wait for you to talk until finish...
people try to screw your life BB...
why you just listen to them and don't want to listen to me?
I did everything just want to protect you... help you.. and find for your future...
but your friends... just give you all the bull shit only...
they want to make you fail... waste your money... waste your time... and something else..
I just want you to give me sometimes to date also cant..
u rather face to fb, MTV, mobile games or manga and don't want to date with me..
You know?
I got job... i got studies... i got bills to pay... i got stress also...
not only you stress from study...
u think your stress more than me??
sometimes I got stress from you as well BB...
I try to let go the stress from you...
but i don't know why you keep make me stress n stress n stress...
I feel like these stress going to kill my life...
I feel like I'm the bad one..
every times you stress or what u will find me to argue and find all my fault out...
I feel so bad that what I'v did everything to you...
BB I love you so much... I really love you so much...
every time u argue with me... I feel like to kill myself...
I guess my happy's soul already flew away or sesat at somewhere...
who knows?
only God know...
but what can I do?
I can't find my happy's soul back anymore...
I'm just a shitty kid live in this world...
just waste the oxygen and space...