我的生活。。

CNY..

2012-01-23T23:48:00.002+08:00

cny liao..
everyone hehe haha...
and me unhappy, angry n scold infront of ppl house...
why she wan do this to me?
why why why???
i did everything just because of her safety...
fuck....
how to fucking calm my god damn brain?
how?
my brain so fucking messy now...

好乱好乱。。

2012-01-11T03:18:00.001+08:00

真的不懂为什么出去还要跟那个鸡白打信息。
干他娘的。
谁才是你的男朋友？
是我？还是那个鸡白？
为什么我这几十天在这儿没发觉到什么开心呢？
就是因为那个鸡白。。
他妈的。
好蓝不爽啊。
我真的好累好累。
可是还是睡不着。
刚才要睡觉的时候，
我掉眼泪了。
不敢跟她说。
只是偷偷的掉眼泪。
只剩下七天了。
很想跟她好好的过。
为什么偏偏要回去学校那里？
我真的不想去到那么远。
只想跟你好好的过这几天。
过了这几天。
我不懂几时才能再见到你了。
好想哭。
真的好想哭。
好想每天都抱着你。
ivan说得对。
到了最后一天是最可悲的一天。
我们两个都会哭到不懂怎样形容。
我真的不懂怎样阿。

难道每个人那么恨我吗？

2011-12-03T23:43:00.002+08:00

isn't because of control my wife then every of her friend doesn't like me??
i try to be friend with them, but what i get?
just got ignored...
or maybe i really wrong??
i shouldn't control her at all???
is that the problem???
i just want my wife become a good girl...
a wife which is listen to me...
i know she willing to change but i don't know why she keep ignore it...
why she likes to do those thing which is i hate???
always make me worry, heart broken, heart pain......
arrr....
i don't want these...
i soooo suffer one...
i really suffer now...
maybe after last night's nightmare and make me really really heart broken...
even though that's not true but i don't know why i got this sad feeling...
i really really heart broken...
everytime see her or listen to her voice...
i want to cry liao...
really want to cry...
i tried to forget this thing but i can't...
i really don't want this thing happen in my real life...
i don't want see my wife suicide...
i don't want to see she bleeding...
i don't want to see she lose blood...
i don't want she die.....
coz she's my the only wife...
i really want she alive...

Photo Time....[Kacak]

2011-11-29T02:22:00.003+08:00

really confusing...

2011-11-25T22:04:00.002+08:00

isn't it so hard to ask people to back home early??
i just care about her safety...
why she always wan go out late??
last time 9pm...
then beg me till 9.30e pm...
and now...she want back at 10pm...
what about next then??
11pm 12am 1am 2am??
back to her old style??
stay late at outside??
seriously...
i don't know...
her parents gave her too freedom...
until she become like this...
but i need to control her from this...
because of this is bad habit...
why don't she go out early???
why must go out late then come back late???
why???
anyone please tell me why???
i don't think she understand my feeling now...
i try to control her from bad habit to good...
and she angry me...
always ask me to leave her alone...
and what about me???
i never ever ask her to leave me alone...
because of i don't want to argue with her...
i feel my heart sooo pain...
always cry in the sleep...
keep ask myself why why why...
izzit all my fault???
izzit i should let her go out till late late???
izzit i should let her play games???
izzit i should let her watch drama???
and let her fail in the exam and live in danger???
if i really let her like this...
i think i will crazy...
really crazy...
or maybe just lying on the road and that's it...
and that's my end of the life...
i'll be disappear forever...
and no one will control her anymore...
and her family either...

生气只是惩罚自己..

2011-11-24T22:40:00.000+08:00

生气只是惩罚自己..
其实在人多车多的大城市里生活，
人与人之间发生的摩擦，真的在所难免，
但是只要我们经常都可以保持一种平常心，
有一种容人的量度，相信这个社会就会更加和谐..
maybe i need to learn this...

=.=

2011-11-24T22:38:00.001+08:00

why she always lie to me???
i feel very heart broken now...
coz she always lie to me...
say the truth also can't...
i really don't want hide everything in my heart...
so hurt one...
everyday put a needle in my heart...
so pain one...
she don;t even know my pain feeling...
ok ba...
forget about it...
just keep continue to put needle in my heart then...
one day my heart stop functioning then GG...
and that time i don't know how le...

My new baby....

2011-11-24T00:11:00.000+08:00

another GG day...

2011-11-22T21:58:00.003+08:00

few days ago right hand injured...
and today my left hand injured as well...
+ someone never learn one thing...
sigh!!!
3rd times already...
but what can i do???
what i said she really don't listen lo...
even though she always lie to me as well...
really don't know why...
anyone can explain???

my little danbo....

2011-11-21T22:12:00.004+08:00

worrying mode...

2011-11-21T00:32:00.002+08:00

i'm so sorry lao po...
i can't stay next to u when u r sick...
i can't do anything...
i really worry about u...
i don't know how now...
feel like to hug u...
really want to take care of u now...
feel like to cry now...
coz i can't do anything...
sorry lao po...
i'm useless...
when u needs me and i can't stay next to u...
i'm very very useless...

sigh!!

2011-11-19T01:12:00.003+08:00

原来现在我才知道她怎样读书了。
半读半玩。
真是的。
没她的办法。
读书不认真的读。
还在玩。
明知道明天有present可是还在玩。
还看联系据。
咳。
真是不懂阿。
头痛啊。
不懂怎么办好。
每次都是被她气到。
快心脏病了。

why??

2011-11-18T12:00:00.002+08:00

why am i not happy at all??
why??
in my head just why...
lots of why??
why i want to know??
why must hide??
why treat me like this??
why he so fucking shit??
why why why??
in my brain just why why why..
arrr sucks...
he, she, it also like this..
God Damn...

怎样都好还是要好好的活下去。

2011-11-18T03:22:00.002+08:00

Finally i bought the air ticket..
after the whole night worry and today bought it..
i hate air asia..
really so damn..
bloody useless..
gosh!!
and i don't know what happen to my wife..
she told me that she got a weird feeling..
something wrong..
and she don't even know what is it..
really make me so worry..
so i decide to watch her sleep tonight..
gonna to be her little Angel..
just now i took my old stuffs and see..
i found my ex n mine's photo.
i really miss her past..
but..
that's the past..
what's the point of missing it for??
+ she's not mine anymore..
i got my lovely wife now..
i should be happy..
should forget the past..
i really love my wife..
really don't want to lose her..
she's part of my life now..
i hope she will together with me till old..
i hope everything will be fine..
God..
please bless us...
i really don't want something happen in between us..
and then break up like that..
i really don't know what will happen to me if both of us really break up..
i think i'll collapse..
i don't think i'll be able to find a girl like my wife..
always accompany me..
always care about me..
really understand me..
laopo...
you are the best one..
i love u..

Something wrong..

2011-11-13T08:19:00.002+08:00

Gosh... Early morning wake up n see wife ady no online..
Feel a bit sad n went to see Lao po d photo.
I dont know y I saw till I cry...
While I saw her..
I think back what she told me last night about that animal..
Fucking hell...
He is really animal man...
God damn sake...
I keep thinking how was her feeling that time n yea..
A bit sad...
Lao po...
I won't do that to u...
I'll love u d.
I won't rape u...
Coz I know what is true n what is wrong...
Lao po....
I really miss u...
I'm crying now...
Coz of that crazy bastard...
Lao po...
I feel like to hug u tight tight d....

skype with lao po....

2011-11-12T01:59:00.000+08:00

so happy can watch my laopo...
my cute cute lao po.....
muakz.....
love my lao po....

Special day....

2011-11-11T11:34:00.003+08:00

watching my wife sleeping again...
today is a special day...
11/11/11 11:11:11am
this is when i capture the time...
this morning...
my wife accompany me sleep till this morning...
i'm so happy to watch my wife sleeping...
hehe...

Sorry Lao po...

2011-11-10T01:37:00.002+08:00

Sorry Lao po....
Always scold u like that...
Always give u stress...
Always make u cry....
Always make u sad...
Always give u trouble....
Always force u this that....
I'm really sorry...
I'm sorry lao po....
I feel like to suicide now....
I don't know what should I do now....
I really don't know what should I do....
Please tell me how....
I seriously wanna die now...
Why just now dont just crash the car???
There is no point of living le...
Im not important at all...
They more important than me....
I seriously don't know how le....
Even though gastric...
I'll still waiting for u...
Now I'm listen to Ur voice n feel the gastric pain n headache...
I don't know how le....
Dear.... I really love u....
I'm so sorry.....
Lao po....

another waiting....

2011-11-09T23:29:00.004+08:00

sigh...
already wait for whole night...
after she came home with friends...
now doing stuff with friend...
really wasting my time....
i try to no angry...
but i think...
i scare i can't make it...
even though i can't make it...
i need to stay for calm.....
cannot angry....
cannot angry....
cannot angry....
stay calm...
stay calm...
stay calm...
but i'm really tired of waiting la....
what should i do???
if she know got from will come over to study...
why don't she back early???
wait from 7.30 till 11.30...
4 hours....
bloody 4 hours...
now she told me 'sorry'...
if 'sorry' can replace the 4 hours...
then everyone no need to work liao...
just 'sorry' can earn big money already...
u lied to me...
i'm ok...
but...
u really don't know how to manage your time...
i really don't know how le....
feel like to crazy...
why in my whole life just wait wait wait wait only???

A moody day!!

2011-11-09T11:24:00.002+08:00

I'm back again...
I feel like I'm so useless...
Always made her mad...
Said wan her happy always but I didn't make it...
I feel so disappointed for myself...
I hate myself....
Why I can't give her happiness??
Why why why??
Maybe I'm the bad one...
That's why I can't give her happiness...
What should I do???
I really want she happy....
But how???
Give her freedom ma???
Always go out till late late???
What about me???
If she always do that then I think our relationship will end soon...
And after that I'll thanks for her friend...
Because of her friend spoiled our relationship...
But I really don't want end the relationship....
Coz I know I really love her...
Can't live without her...
If one day really something happen to her...
I 100% will find her friends and fuck them out...
Because of those friend make my wife in trouble...
Like what my wife said me last night...
I'm not a human...
I'm an animal...
I'm pretty sad after I heard this...
But I admit...
I'm not a human...
I'm an animal...
I got no heart...
My heart made by metal...
If my heart keep crying crying crying...
One day my heart will berkarat...
Then slowly slowly slowly got a hole....
Then it will broken forever....
And my heart won't be appear in this world anymore....
It will disappear forever...
I really want to know why no one can understand my feeling???
They only care about theirselves...
What about me???
I'm a weak people....
Easily to get hurt one...
Peoples......
Y u all fucking crazy one...
Mj dead and u alllllll cry like shit...
Africa there everyday got people die and u guys never ever cry for them...
Maybe some only for those who care about Africa...
Is this too bloody over???
Same as like me....
I'm one of African...
No one care about me...
I alive or no alive also no one will care about me...
Really sometimes I ask myself...
What's the point of living in this world???
Why I born in this world for???
I knw my family is not a complete family...
Like last time in malaysia, Dad n mum almost everyday argue argue...
But what can I do???
Just keep quite n cry in my heart...
Keep asking myself...
Why my family got this problem???
I just want to have a good n happiness family...
But how come God gave me a family like this???
Everyday argue argue...
Dad n me always argue as well...
Why why why???
Please give me answer!!!!

烦恼卡在我的头上。

2011-11-09T00:37:00.002+08:00

怎么办才好？
好多烦恼烦恼烦恼在我的头里丫。
好烦啊。。。
一天比一天的烦。。。
不懂这些烦恼几时才会没有。。
一天比一天的头痛。。。
妈的。。。
真的有时候很想放弃我自己。。。
走了过后就没烦恼了。。。
然而老爸都把我当成是狗了。。。
老妈我不懂了。。。
老姐就烦她的女儿了。。。
而我的老婆。。。
每天让我担心。。。
真的伤脑筋。。。
老婆我不懂为什么我在你心目中是排第几？？？
真的很不懂。。。
我知道有时我真的太过分。。。
不让你这个那个。。。
就是因为不想你在走回以前的旧路。。。
我知道你和你的朋友的感情很好。。。
可是你有想过我的感受吗？？？
以前每天都去到三根半夜才回家。。。
一去就去了五六个小时。。。
而我呢就白白坐在电脑面前等你回家。。。
每天都过的想念和担心的日子。。。
真的很怕有一天你在外面会发生什么事情。。。
真的不想这一天会发生在我老婆的身上。。。
真的不想。。。。
真的不想老婆好像我的朋友那样。。。
被强奸了过后就变傻去了。。。
老婆。。。
我真的不想这个会发生在你的身上。。。
老天爷。。。
希望你会保佑我的老婆吧。。。
为了保佑我的老婆。。。
我肯被起老婆所有的负担。。。
如果你要审判我老婆的话。。。
就来审判我吧。。。
为了老婆。。。
我会被起这个负担。。。
真的好累好累。。。
老天爷。。。
你几时才带我进入天堂？？？
还是我会去地狱？？？
承受完全的处罚？？？

Love shape made by me...

2011-11-08T20:18:00.003+08:00

又被老婆骗了。
最讨厌被人骗了。
为什么每次都是这样？
咳。。。
算了吧。
上次是这样，今天也是这样，改次还是一样。
不懂几时才会改变。
原来这都是她朋友的错。
我恨他们。
如果我的老婆有什么三差两段，我不会放过他们的。
咳。。。。
我老婆很不开心。
真的。。
我不懂该做什么。
怎么办才好？？
老婆。。。
真的很对不起。。。
我真的不想你出事。。。
所以我才这样做。。。
老婆对不起。。。。
真的很对不起。。。。。
请你原谅我。。。
好吗？？？
为什么爱情就是那么痛苦的？
现在我才知道为什么人人都说’爱情都是那么复杂的‘。

Early morning!!

2011-11-08T07:41:00.002+08:00

Today wake up at 5.30am!!
So tired Lo...
Looks like whole night didn't sleep...
Lao po told me to take care myself...
Coz I told her that I was faint in the car an she so worry about me...
Of Coz I'll take care myself....
I won't faint 2nd time at the shop...
Coz Lao po told me that don't scare her otherwise she will heart attack!!
Lao po...
Like what I promised u....
I won't let myself happen the same thing le...
I'll take care myself good and make sure u too Lao po...
I very worry about u d...
Coz I don't want something happen to u....

Lao po...
I hope u like the flower from me ba...

I think I'll buy a flower for u...
Hehe...

Without Lao po's sleeping pill...

2011-11-08T02:30:00.003+08:00

Tonight really needs to try to sleep Lo.
Coz Lao po slept already...
Really miss her now...
But I dun wan to wake her up...
Coz tomorrow she got class...
Even though tomorrow night got group assignment as well....
I'm going to be lonely...
Don't even know when she will come back...
How come her group assignment always at night one??
That leader must be so kanasai one...
Always wasting her time and disturb my wife and my personal time...
Damn her....
Haiz....
So many thing stuck in my head now...
I don't think I'll sleep well...
Even though these few days only sleep for few hours only..
Coz my head really Stuck a lot of thing at there..
Don't even know how to clear them...
Lao po...
I tried to sleep this morning but I can't...
I don't knw why...
Maybe really needs your sleeping pills...
Or maybe I'm really feel so stressful about something??
I don't even know what I'm stress at???
Sigh...
I really want to sleep....
But I can't sleep at all...
Lao po... I miss u....
Really miss u....

Really feel like to buy a ring for u...
 for u Lao po...
I must buy a ring for u when I go to Malaysia...
I want dear dear happy when I at Malaysia...
I don't want see Lao po sad anymore...
Really don't want....
I rather accept the sad thing and won't give Lao po sad...
That's because of I love u....


难道这真的是老天爷给我的礼物？

2011-11-07T19:56:00.002+08:00

我的老婆就好像老天爷给我的一个礼物。
我们都不认识对方。
可是不懂为什么我们就一起了。
可是我就是不会去珍惜她。
害到差点把她给气走了。
老婆真对不起。
我知道错了。
请原谅我。

6/6/2011

until the end of our life.
真的真的很想跟老婆一辈子到老。

Watching my wife sleeping...

2011-11-07T13:45:00.005+08:00

好开心哦。
可以看着老婆睡觉。
好幸福的感觉。
老婆好可爱哦。
嘻嘻。

saw this pic and think about the past.

2011-11-07T08:06:00.003+08:00

my wife loves to go out late.
always make me wait n wait n wait...
i really don't like this...
but what can i do???
everytime i'm just like same as the guy in the photo...
waiting for her = waiting for bus in the train station...
i know how's the feeling...
i tried wait for the bus for more than 2 hours and 45 minutes like under the hot sun.
my back of my neck and my hand 100% got sun burn...
that's my 1st time waiting for the bus that long...
and my 1st time catching the bus around my new house...
but in this picture is better...
waiting in the rain with the umbrella...
dear...
what i wan to tell u is...
i'll wait for u forever...
that's because i know that i love u...
i'm willing to wait for u...

好幸福哦。。

2011-11-07T07:50:00.004+08:00

好久没有这么幸福了。
老婆既然陪我到天亮。
听我的呼呼的睡觉声。
老婆也累了。
该给她休息了。
虽然她每次说不累。
可是我知道她是累的。
可能觉得我每次都陪她陪到我自己不够睡眠。
可是是我自己愿意的。
因为我真的爱他。
我肯把我所有的时间都花在她的身上。
老婆。
我爱你。
我会永远的爱护你。
不再让你哭泣了。
我答应你。

好好的睡吧老婆。。
真的很想看你睡觉。。
老婆。。
很想可以抱你每一天。。

开心的夜晚。

2011-11-07T01:00:00.002+08:00

好开心哦。
可以跟老婆webcam。
看到她那么努力的做功课。
可是呢刚才她就看我的部落各。
她有点不开心咯。
因为看到很多不开心的事。
看到她不想看的东西。
老婆。
真的对不起。
我真的不想再伤害你了。
我会永远的保护你，爱护你，永远不分离。

I miss u...

2011-11-06T19:09:00.003+08:00

老婆。。。
我好想念你。。。

A sadness day for myself...

2011-11-06T16:47:00.002+08:00

guess what?
today...
my heart totally can't concentrate at all...
only think about wai kuan wai kuan wai kuan...
eventhough i pray as well..
i told God...
'God..
please don't break us...
i really really really love her...
i can't live without her...
that's because i know U sent her to me...
i know before that i treat her quite bad...
eventhough recently also...
i did everything just want she safe and we can communicate always...
but she doesn't like it..
so what can i do??
just give her freedom???
if i reelly give her freedom then i think i'll going to be crazy soon...
Lord...
please teach me how to do....
please...
i just want together with her forever...
please...
don't break us....
please please...
i really love her...
i hope she will marry to me...
i'm ready to meet her parents but she havent...
God...
please give her a strong heart...
then i hope we will marry soon...
please help me God...'
i hope God really heard what i said...
i really love wai kuan...
eventhough i did all the stupid thing, thats all because of her..
because of i love her...
i pray untill i want to cry...
but i cannot cry in the church...
i scare my parents and others aunty uncle see then not good...
i just secretly cried in my heart...
and...
i got a little bit tears out..
and i quickly wipe it...
hope no one see it...
seriously today i can't smile at all...
i just pretend that i'm normal...
just now..
i slept in the car...
that's because im really really really tired...
i needs energy to accompany her...
but i think tonight she will sleep early...
so...
consider GG for me..
no sleeping pill again...
this morning i was sleeping and i dreamed something horrible...
about me n her...
but i can't remember what is it...
and i hope this wont happen please...
God...
please protect my relationship please...
don't let evil spoil it...
please....

The truth from my heart...

2011-11-06T01:06:00.003+08:00

seriously...
recently always argue with her...
i don't feel like to argue with her...
but she just always don't listen to me...
now worse...
after tonight...
she want to do what ever she like...
this is all what i did...
i hurt her and myself...
but i'm seriously...
i also don't like she follow her attitude...
coz that's too bad...
i hope she know what she's doing...
i hope she wont walk into bad ways...
i really so scare...
i scare one day she will leave me...
i scare one day she will follow another guy like kei kei...
i really scare this will happen...
God...
what can i do?
isn't U want me to find another one?
i got not much girl's friend around me...
how can i find one for myself?
God...
if U really listen to my cry...
please help me...
i'm you son...
this is my future...
should i together with her?
or find another one?
i really don't understand God.
why from the 1st she will like me for?
isn't God sent her to me?
or U want me to bring her to church?
God...
i really need to know...
because of my heart really confusing now...
i'm not sure am i really love her or just care about her?
What is LOVE?
i heard from father that LOVE = TIME.
what does this mean?
i search from google and i found this...

To a Child Love is Spelled T-I-M-E by Mac Anderson and Lance Wubbels stresses the most important thing you can give your child: your time. All the gold in the world cannot buy back either the little delights or the big pleasures that happen without announcement or plan. To a Child Love is Spelled T-I-M-E tugs at your heartstrings and states the simple, honest truth: You simply have to be there for your children. Give your child the best gift of all—yourself. That's what they really want and need. Remember, To a Child Love is Spelled T-I-M-E.

The Best Expression of Love is Time..
God...
seriously i need to know am i really like her?
if i say yes, will U let us forever?
U should know about her past?
i remember what my mum said.
God want us clean.
but God.
i'm not a clean too..
i did alot of bad thing as well...
but then i know that God still take care for me...
Thanks God...
really appreciate this...
God...
i'm really need some advise from U...
please come into my heart...
light up the way for me...
i really needs your help...
PLEASE.....
PLEASE.....

照片。。

2011-11-05T23:53:00.003+08:00

我的老婆。

我的老婆亲亲哦。。
好可爱哦。。

老婆的伤是被我害的。。
我要把她给医好。。

deep shit day..

2011-11-05T22:54:00.002+08:00

had a big argue with her again..
coz i was unhappy n i said something make her more angry..
that's about her past...
about her virgin...
about her parents...
gosh....
how come am i that terrible?
seriously...
i just want her care more about me...
otherwise i'm seriously fuck up....
i have nothing le...
i choose to give up everything and choose together with her...
she's so important in my life...
i know that i can't lose her...
even though i lose her...
i'll try my best to chase her back...
please la evil....
get out of my way...
she's mine....
i wont lose her anymore...
please get out of my way evil....
fuck off evil...
fuck u evil....
go to your fucking hell evil....
i want together with my wife...
FOREVER.............
i wont hurt her anymore....
NEVER EVER.....
i promise myself...
i promise to God...
i'll marry her...
i don't care about her past...
that's because i love her...

a shit day...

2011-11-04T20:38:00.002+08:00

haiz...
i'm pretty worry...
always lie to me...
just now said 7 or 8pm will online..
then now become going out liao...
i'm just sit infront of laptop and wait... wait... wait...
i'm tiring of waiting...
seriously..
what's the point of wasting my time for waiting her??
why why why???
she might give me a shit trouble...

so nice to watch my wife doing her study..
i think i really love her very well and i really hope she will be fine...
i want forever with her...
i really hope forever can be with her...

老婆。我真的很爱你。

好傻的一天。

2011-11-02T22:58:00.002+08:00

今天我喝了两罐red bull。
好傻哦。
这个东西会把我弄死掉。
可是最近就是不够精神所以就买了这些来喝咯。
每个人以为我要自杀。
哈哈。。
真的有想过去自杀。
可是我做不到。
没有那个胆量。
咳。。。
真的没办法啊。。。
怎么跟她说还是不听。。
真是伤脑精。。
真的不懂我们要吵到几时才会停。。
我真的不想再跟她吵了。。
每次跟她吵了过后就哭了。。
我的心怎样都好还是有这个伤痕。。
很深很深的伤。。
咳。。。
老天阿。。
你真的要这样玩我吗？？

I HATE MYSELF....

2011-10-31T23:33:00.003+08:00

I HATE MYSELF....

I HATE MYSELF.....

I HATE MYSELF....

After i draw this, i put some salts on that place....
so PAIN.......
T.T
now i can feel the real pain.....

Love my Macro gear...

2011-10-28T17:53:00.002+08:00

With External Flash

With Ring Flash

2011-10-26T21:25:00.003+08:00

今天买了一条 necklace 给她。
今晚虽然我们没吵架，
可是我不懂为什么我对她没有那些爱情的感觉了。
真的不懂为什么。。
总觉得她好像对我没有那些感觉。
不懂为什么我们都很少聊天了。
以前我们什么都聊。
可是最今她都没什么跟我聊了。
好像在隐藏些什么。
真的不懂她要我的什么？
我觉得我们两个在一起的笑容比较少了。
真的不懂。。
是不是应为那个鸡蛋出现了把我们的爱情毁了。。
所以她就这样对我了。

真心的一篇。

2011-10-25T21:34:00.002+08:00

有时候我真的不懂她。
每一次当我很不开心的时候，
很想找她陪我聊天。
可是他总是不理我。
真的不懂她在干什么。。。
做她的男朋友真的好难。
为什么她总是不了解我？？
今天，
我真的很难过。。
虽然他们在网上已经不是朋友了。
可是他们还可以在电话sms.
我真的很怕这件事又在发生。。。
我真的很怕。。。
老天爷。。
难道这就是我的命吗？
每一天过着怕的感觉。
已经等了十分钟了。
她还没回我的skype.
真的不知道他在做什么。。。。
真的很想知道他是不是还在跟他sms???
天啊。。。
救救我吧。。
我真的不懂该怎么办。。

心碎的一晚。

2011-10-24T23:32:00.003+08:00

i needs to thanks my bro Gino to show me this picture.
and ask me to be stronger...
dont let yourself DOWN....
today, i argue with wai kuan and kim son....
that's because of ah kim appear in our relationship...
but at the end...
i together with wai kuan again...
but i know that wai kuan deleted ah kim on fb...
even though both facebook deleted...
but they still can keep contact from sms...
haiz...
i dont knw why im so stupid...
keep give her so many chance together with me...
park.....
wake up hey...
maybe both of us can't together FOREVER...
why u still want to give her a chance???
but i really love her...
after this thing happen i lose my confident to 100% love her..
after this happen...
i really can feel that my real heart actually PAIN....
God...
please tell me that will us together forever???
will she become my real wife???
i needs to know the answer....
please tell me....
you are the only one which is can give me the answer....
did i do the right thing???
is it correct to give her a chance???
but i really scare that she will hurt me again....
i really scare....
Yuen Kei Kei doesn't hold her promise and follow other guy run away...
Miiya doesnt give me a chance to be her partner even though now how i miss her...
and wai kuan...
always give me heart broken...
i really hate yuen kei kei....
i hate her i hate her i hate her....
but i really miss miiya....
miiya.... where are u???
i really want to know how's her life over there....
didnt contact her for long long long time....
sigh!!

孤单的夜晚。

2011-09-04T00:20:00.002+08:00

真的很不爽。
不懂为什么她总是要出去到夜夜的回来。
我真的不喜欢啊。
难道她的那些猪狗朋友都是这样？
我总觉的我跟她相处的时间真的很少。
老天爷啊。。
我真的不懂我要什么。。
不想再谈恋爱了。。
想一个人过生活。
真的很想放弃我自己。
一去就好了。
没烦恼。。。

我回来了。

2011-07-06T22:55:00.001+08:00

哎。。
为什么她要这样子对我呢？
真的很不开心咯。
正么办好？
老大。。
别傻了。
快把她给望了吧。
开始新的生活吧。
啊。。。。
他妈的。。。
真的很不爽。。。
干她娘的。。。
三字经。。。
真的不想再谈恋爱了。。。
好想哭。。。

am i happy?

2011-06-04T02:17:00.004+08:00

我开心吗？
把我喜欢的人弄哭了。
我自己开心吗？
不。。
为什么？
因为我自己也是不开心。
头痛了几天。
有Panadol就可以了。
真的能救到我吗？
还是会把我自己搞死？
我自己也不懂。
君。。
我爱你。
不要伤害你自己吧。
好吗？
真的很想跟你一起过人生的另一半。
如果我们真的有缘的话。
真的很想叫你一声老婆。
老婆，我爱你。
希望你真的能成为我的老婆。
王惠君。
我爱你。
还有希望能听到你叫我声老公。
真的很期待这一天。

想念的一天。

2011-05-09T13:38:00.002+08:00

亲爱的琪琪。
好久不见。
我好想念你。
我很想你回来我的身边。
我不懂为什么我接受不到别的女生当我的女朋友。
可能我还是放不下你吧。
其实，现在我跟YK在一起，可是我还是感觉不到那些FEELING。
不想以前跟你在一起的时候的感觉。
琪琪。
如果以后有机会的话我还会选你当我的女朋友/老婆。
我真的在等着这个奇迹出现。

Thornlie Train Station

2011-03-25T22:07:00.001+08:00

Thornlie Train Station, a photo by an3rgy on Flickr.

this is the place where i wait for my bus.

22 march 2011 [Photo]

2011-03-22T22:15:00.007+08:00

This girl is like hell skinny.

Took this photo when the train is running.

Railway.

Myself.

City View.

Soft shell crab.

Vinegar Chicken.

Pork belly.

Myself.

All of these photo took by my iphone.

Which one better?

2011-03-04T03:27:00.001+08:00

RAW File

JPEG File

1st assignment (havent done yet)...

2011-03-04T03:18:00.001+08:00

/****************************************************************************************
; *
; FILENAME: LCD INTERFACING.C *
; DATE: 17/02/2011 *
; FILE VERSION: 1.0 *
; *
; AUTHOR: PARK CHENG WONG *
; DESCRIPTION: SHOW STUDENT NAME AND ID ON LCD *
; *
; *
;****************************************************************************************
;PIN USAGE
;
;PORTA BIT 0 //ENABLE
;PORTA BIT 1 //RS
;PORTA BIT 2 //RW
;PORTA BIT 3
;PORTA BIT 4
;PORTA BIT 5
;PORTA BIT 6
;PORTA BIT 7
;
;PORTB BIT 0
;PORTB BIT 1 //SWITCH
;PORTB BIT 2
;PORTB BIT 3
;PORTB BIT 4
;PORTB BIT 5
;PORTB BIT 6
;PORTB BIT 7
;
;PORTC BIT 0 //LCD
;PORTC BIT 1 //LCD
;PORTC BIT 2 //LCD
;PORTC BIT 3 //LCD
;PORTC BIT 4 //LCD
;PORTC BIT 5 //LCD
;PORTC BIT 6 //LCD
;PORTC BIT 7 //LCD
*/
cli
/***************************************************************************************/
//prototype procedures

void setupPIC (void);
void WriteString(const char *StringAdd, uns8 line, uns8 posn);
void main (void);

#pragma config |= 0x3fb1 // set up configure register

// assign names to port pins
bit SWITCH @ PORTB.1;
bit E @ PORTA.0;
bit RS @ PORTA.1;
bit RW @ PORTA.2;

//***************************************************************************************
// SETUP PROCEDURE *
//***************************************************************************************
//setup required options for PIC
//RECEIVES - nothing
//RETURNS - nothing

void setup(void)
{
PORTA=0; //set all o/ps to 0
PORTB=0;
PORTC=0;
TRISA = 0;
TRISB = 2; //set pinB 1 as input
TRISC = 0;
ADCON1 = 6; //configure ADC for all digital I/O

//***************************************************************************************
// PROGRAM SRART *
//***************************************************************************************

void main( void)
{
while(SWITCH==1);
while(SWITCH==0);
writestring('PARK CHENG WONG',0,0);
while(SWITCH==1);
while(SWITCH==0);
writestring('040739376',1,0);
while(SWITCH==1);
while(SWITCH==0);

clear (0x01)
cursor (0x02)

}

//***************************************************************************************
// DELAY PROCEDURE *
//***************************************************************************************
//time delay - miliseconds - uses TIMER 0
//RECEIVES - UNS16 number of miliseconds to delay
//RETURNS - nothing

void delay(uns16 milisec)
{ uns8 next = 0;

OPTION = 2; // prescaler divide TMR0 rate by 8
TMR0 = 2; // deduct 2*8 fixed instruction cycles delay

do
{
next += 125;
while (TMR0 != next) // 125 * 8 = 1000 (= 1 ms)
;
}while ( -- milisec !=0);
}
//***************************************************************************************
// SENDSTRING PROCEDURE *
//***************************************************************************************
//send an ascii string to the LCD
//send is placed at the cursor position received

//RECEIVES a pointer to the string, line number and line position
//RETURNS nothing

void WriteString(const char *StringAdd, uns8 line, uns8 posn)
{ char character;

//set 1st character position depending on the line number & position receired

if(lin==0)
send_byte(0x80 + posn,0); //set cursor position in line 0
else
send_byte(0xc0 + posn,0); //set cursor position in line 1

while(1)
{
character = *StringAdd; //get character from array

StringAdd++; //increment array address

if(character==0) //see if we have a zero-end of string
break; //if so get out of while loop

send_byte(character,1); //send character to LCD-mode=1
//student to write the send)byte procedure

delay(1); //wait 1mS
}
}

Picture...

2011-03-04T03:12:00.004+08:00

what a cold joke from my aunty.

2011-03-04T03:06:00.002+08:00

just now my aunty told my dad to ask me to open skype.
but then my skype cant open, so i use my mum's skype to talk to her.
what a interesting from her is....
she ask me to add her facebook...
yea!!
then i add lo..
after that, she ask me to find a person as well..
then i find lo...
thats a girl...
my aunty ask me to add her...
sort of FORCE ME TO ADD!!!
lol...
yea!!
and then i add lo..
hmm...
what else...
errr
o ya...
after i add her...
my aunty told me that tomorrow is her BIRTHDAY....
ask me to say happy birthday to her...
i was like ...
what the hell..
she havent add me yet i cant tell her anything..
lol..
and she said...
i dont care...
as long as find a way to say...
i was like '.....'
hmm what else...
o ya...
she said...
try to friend with her...
who knws maybe next time me n her will .....
lol!!!
come on...
i still want my single life...
lol...
anyway...
God will look after me...

Testing Testing

2011-03-01T04:23:00.002+08:00

28 Feb 2011

2011-03-01T03:58:00.002+08:00

New Photo of Me.

2011-02-26T03:41:00.003+08:00

哎。。
脸上长出了很多豆豆啊。。
看到自己一天比一天老了。。
白头发也拔了几条。。
在过几年馒头都是白头发了。。
那时候。。。。
哎呀。。
都不懂能不能过到那一天。。
也许明年每个人都死了。。
世界末日来领了。。
这世界发生了好多灾难。。
尤其是在Australia很多灾难。。
年头就发生了大水灾。。
然后就大火灾。。
还有疯狂的暴风雨。。
最近发生了地震。。
水灾和地震死了好多人。。
看电视新闻的时候就有点难过。。
昨天晚上就看到FB有人写这个。。
‘世界末日是在今年的五月二十一日’
看了过后就有点怕。。
就对自己说。。
难道我的生命就到二十三岁而已吗？？
我还有很多事情还没做呢。。
女友也没一个。。
每一天就孤孤单单的过日子。。
好寂寞。。
妈妈常对我说。。
要回改。。
因为上帝要来审判了。。
没有人会知道那一天是几时的。。
所以我们要警醒祷告。。
哦。。
对哦。。
我刚刚买了一架照相机。。
满贵一下哦。。
可是我很喜欢哦。。
哈哈。。

At school nothing to do.

2011-02-21T22:36:00.003+08:00

Cappuccino and Kikoman soya sauce(not mine but my friend's).

Inside of my school.

Someone pee on this table.

My bag.

My shoe.

Nike.

happy happy..

2011-02-20T23:06:00.002+08:00

huray...
just bought a canon 60D...
1000D time to get lost...
haha... ^^
but need to wait for 2 to 3 days...
i think it will arrive on Thursday...
hopefully

the last day of chinese new year.

2011-02-17T23:32:00.002+08:00

This is the meal of my last day chinese new year.
pretty good right?
my friends ask me to go n eat because of chinese new year.
they are Ricky, Alice and Aaron.
they chooses this place because of they wanna use 'chopstick'...
-.-!!!
why must come to this place neh?
Ricky and me ate alot hey...
but others 2 like...eat not much..
swt!!!
yea...
and each person paid for 40 bucks for this dinner...
fucking hell...
i'm gonna broke...
damn...
never mind...
one year once...
BE HAPPY...
T.T

in this class..

2011-02-15T02:12:00.002+08:00

lol....
how lazy is my lecturer...
2003's worksheet still give us to do...
i changed the year for him.

情人节

2011-02-14T12:30:00.002+08:00

好无聊的情人节呀。
每一年都是一样。
真讨人厌。
是谁创造这个情人节的？
啊。。
我是不是一生都是单身的？
难道主要我单身？

Unknown's Bug

2011-02-13T00:27:00.005+08:00

my new game

2011-02-05T13:17:00.001+08:00

left: IOS 4.1
middle: Windows 7
right: Android(iDroid)

my own cable..

2011-02-01T03:00:00.002+08:00

just now i make a cable..it is 3.5mm to 2x RCA cable..spent few hours to sort the wires out. gosh...this is not a easy job..but looks very easy tho..haha...anyway...it success already..quite happy hey..haha

Auzzie day 2011

2011-01-27T00:54:00.001+08:00

昨天是 Australia Day.
john，他的家人和我一起去到一个湖边。
那里好多人哦。
因为每个人都准备看烟花。
哈哈。
到了晚上大概八点吧。
烟花就开始了。
好美哦。。
可惜我没带我的相机。。
啊。。
看完烟花。。
我遇到一颗流星。。
这是我第二次看到流星呀。。
但是我没许愿望。。
应为我每次许的愿望都没出现。。
人生可以看到多少次流星呢？？

不开心

2011-01-25T00:09:00.001+08:00

原来我现在才发现在这世界上没有个是真心的。
无论是爱情或友情。
全部都是假的。
难道活在这世界上是靠自己吗？
真的很想得到这个答案。
有谁可以答这个问题呢？

奇怪的事。。。

2011-01-11T00:27:00.001+08:00

真的很奇怪。。
总是觉得一个又一个的离开。。
是我的问题还是他们的问题呢？？
咳。。
还是我倒霉？？
真的想不通。。
为什么丫？？

today's crabbing success

2010-12-29T02:16:00.002+08:00

My birthday cake.... 27/12/2010

lots of crabs...caught on 29th of December...

睡不着。。。

2010-12-23T03:05:00.002+08:00

真的闷到死。。。
没人陪我吹牛。。。
很累很累。。。
可是。。。
睡不着。。。
讨厌。。。
我不喜欢这种感觉。。。
咳。。。
还有四天就是我的22岁。。。
真的老了。。。
今年的生日愿望就是。。。
某某某。。。
希望这一次真的会出现。。。

a crazy crabbing..

2010-12-22T23:38:00.002+08:00

gosh...
last night become a crazy...
crabbing n fishing till 5am morning....
i was like holy mama...
don't knw why so crazy these few days...
aiks....
dont knw why these few days like doesn't like to on my blog...
o ya...
i found a new game...
quite fun tho...
name 'FiestaOnline'
i only play for 2 days n i got level 20...
lol...
but i spent alot of times on this game..
haha

Sick...

2010-12-20T02:28:00.001+08:00

Feel x feeling well today...
I think I'm gonna sick soon...

18/12/2010

2010-12-19T00:27:00.002+08:00

today is my sister's birthday...
this morning i slept till 11am...
then afternoon join my sister for lunch and went to harbour town for shopping...
yea...
quite nice ey...
i bought a shoe n a bag...
shoe cost me about 30 bucks...
and the bad cost me 20 bucks...
now they got sales which is half price...
so nice ey...
i love Fila and Addidas...
Addidas doesn't have any discount so i went to Fila to buy lo...
yea after that we went to eat japanese food...
after the dinner i went to crabbing with john...
tonight we got 3 crabs...
pretty big tho...
but i gave john 2 of them n i keep 1 crab...

16/12/2010

2010-12-17T02:57:00.002+08:00

another fishing day...
last night i got 2 crabs..
today i got 6 crabs...
not bad...
today's crab super BIG n HUGE...
haha...
i like it...
swt!!!
didnt update with my blog for around a week time i think...
coz busy watching 'Slam Dunk' and crabbing...
haha...
love slam dunk very much neh....
and love crabbing too...

my iphone..

2010-12-08T21:15:00.003+08:00

ar...
my lovely blog...
i'm back...
i spent 2 nights to modified my god damn iphone...
n today i found something nice...
n i record it...
muahahaha...
o yea...
i love my little iphone...
i can do alot of thing on my iphone...
^_^

Piss off...

2010-12-07T01:07:00.003+08:00

今天是我開心和不開心的日子。。
開心的事是我終於能去抓螃蟹。。
我很喜歡釣魚和抓螃蟹。。
最吊的是家人偏偏就是不爽我。。
每天反對我做這個和那個。。
他媽的。。
為甚麼我每一次的成功事都是被家人摧毀？？
上帝。。
我到底做錯甚麼？？
為甚麼我的生活那麼吊的？？

6/12/2010

2010-12-06T00:55:00.002+08:00

what the fuck to me...
why tonight's mood so fucking bad..
whats wrong to me???

5/12/2010

2010-12-05T13:21:00.002+08:00

few days didn't write my blog ady...
coz busying fishing..
o yea...
these few days i'm pretty tired lo..
must be not enough sleep or didn't sleep well..
even though this morning i almost pengsan in the church...
holy shit...
i keep awake...
don't want to pengsan...
so i try to play my iphone n eat sweets...
to keep awake...
yea...
finally it doesn't work for me...
so i just fishing at there lo...
sienz...

1/12/2010

2010-12-02T01:32:00.003+08:00

i just came back from fishing...
lovely...
1st time fishing at the seaside...
heaps of BIG rocks...
very dangerous...
but alot of people fishing at there...
john he got 1 fish...
and few days ago...
i met 2 aunties and 1 uncle...
tonight...
they at that side...
+ aunty teach me some techniques...
and ho..she give me a glow stick..
coz that area very dark one...
next to the light house...
+ very windy...
shit...
lucky i didnt wear my hat...
or else my hat will drop into the sea...
yea..
these photo is took from that area...
actually i'm trying to take the photo of the light house...
but too far..
too bad...

30/11/2010

2010-11-30T22:59:00.002+08:00

today nothing special...
just work n work n work...
lonely...
really feel very very lonely...
don't want to work at there liao...
really sien ady...
just now..
i chat with my ex again...
she told about her story...
i'm very happy o...
coz saw her happy there..
but seriously...
missing her...
以前常常跟她说的三句话。。。
现在不敢跟她说了。。。
就是很想很想跟她说。。。
可是就是说不出来。。。
打了也不敢发出去。。。
我真是没用。。。
我是个没有用的人。。。
琪琪。。。
我爱你。。。
我想念你。。。

29/11/2010

2010-11-29T23:34:00.003+08:00

今天。。
我忙了一阵天。。
忙到我受伤了。。
连我的手机也快坏了。。
咳。。
今晚也满累下。。。
要睡觉了啦。。
累到没有MOOD写了。。
安安啦。。
我的不咯各。。

2nd day of fishing day...

2010-11-29T00:36:00.003+08:00

today got these fish..but cant bring them home...damn it...
this is the story for today...pretty tired..uh!!!

Fishing Day...

2010-11-27T19:37:00.004+08:00

Today, john n me went to sherley bridge for fishing...
we went there around 4pm and start everything...
before that, we went to Big W for buying fishing stuffs and had my lunch...
we had 12 pieces pizza...haha...
quite crazy right...
so yeah...when john start fishing n straight away got fish ady...
like less than 1 minute...
lol...
and me....didnt get any fish...
SIGH...
after an hour...he got another fish again..
forgot whats the fish name...
but this fish got poison...and quite cute..
coz this kind of fish can become a ball...
haha...
o yea...this is the fish....
have a look.. ^_^

第一天。。

2010-11-26T21:29:00.003+08:00

今天。。
我和JOHN第一天一起去找工作。。
我们找到很多间。。
可是。。
他们就是叫我们等消息。。
咳。。
今天满累一下。。
因为去了好多地方哦。。
上上下下。。
到了旁晚。。
我们到了湖边。。
看了好美丽的风景。。
可是就是忘了带我的照相机。。
那个地方就是很美丽。。
我们打算明天一起在那里钓鱼。。
我需要。。
钓鱼的东西。。
明天去买吧。。
刚刚想起。。
我昨天拍了一张照片。。
是从我学校拍的。。
满好笑咯。。
因为我们学校的电梯坏了两个月。。
所以有些学生就写这一些东西。。
我的朋友是第一个写的。。
哈哈。。

我的怀习惯又回来了。。

2010-11-25T02:10:00.003+08:00

惨了。。
最近又喜欢鸟人了。。
很喜欢马粗话。。
我的怀习惯又回来了。。
啊。。
为什么会这样？？
可能是忙把。。
太多压力。。
还是。。
啊。。
不懂呀。。
显。。
讲了不要再骂粗话了。。
为什么还是骂？？
真的不懂。。

考试了。。。

2010-11-25T01:53:00.003+08:00

惨了。。
快要考试了。。
还没预备好呢。。
怎么办。。
咳。。
再继续念吧。。
念到像个僵尸都没有人会理。。
头痛了。。
肚子饿了。。
累了。。
想睡觉了。。
可是。。
还是要念书呀。。
妈的。。
昨天下午买了只Teddy Bear。。
是要送给Sandy呀。。
要给她个惊喜。。
哈哈。。
好久没看到她了。。
不知道她过的如何。。
每次问她的时候。。
都是说很好。。
不懂是不是真的好。。
好了拉。。
不写了。。
该念书了。。
要不然。。
吃鸡蛋了。。
妈妈。。
为什么这一科那么多Formula？？
真的讨厌拉。。
还要一个一个背。。
啊。。
头痛。。

今天心情不好。。

2010-11-23T23:36:00.001+08:00

今天心情不好。。
今天不想写。。
终。。

shit...

2010-11-22T20:16:00.003+08:00

WHAT THE FUCK....
today's exam fucking hard..
why the fuck soo god damn insane??
holy shit...
i hate you Kim Gates...
watch out your face...
Mother Fucker...

第一天考試。。

2010-11-22T09:11:00.002+08:00

還有四個小時就要考試了。。
沒甚麼讀到書。。
慘了。。
有點緊張。。
真的不想拿這科。。
可是沒有選擇。。
唉。。
希望我可以好好的做吧。。
有機會一定會Ahem的。。

又痛了。。

2010-11-21T23:40:00.002+08:00

为什么我的心脏那么弱？？
刚才又痛了。。
呼吸有点困难。。
难道时间到了？？
那就好咯。。
快快回天家去。。
不用在这世上过痛苦的生活。。
明天考试了。。
还没准备好。。
吊。。
真的读不到进脑。。
为什么会这样？？
惨了。。
很怕又失败多一次。。

a lonely sunday

2010-11-21T12:02:00.005+08:00

今天，我不想见到任何朋友。。
不懂为什么。。
总觉得心里有些事很不顺。。
天啊。。
为什么会这样？？
just now happen alot of things...
feel want to suicide myself...
留在世上很辛苦。。
妈的。。
开始头痛了。。
吊。。
为什么会这样。。
很多不开心的事藏在我心里。。
很想告诉别人我的事情。。
可是就是说不出口。。
我是一个不爱讲话的人。。
可是很喜欢讲废话。。
将那么多废话。。
朋友就笑了。。
可是我都没笑。。
如果我真的笑了。。
那只是我的表面笑而已。。
我的心里不会笑。。
还是。。
我不懂的怎么笑。。
或者是。。
我的心里藏太多不开心的事了。。
真的不懂啊。。
有谁可以帮帮我。。
真的很想知道心里笑的感觉。。

我开心吗？？

2010-11-21T01:25:00.004+08:00

我每天都问一样的问题。。
我开心吗？？
答案是'不‘。。
为什么？？
因为我的人生充满不愉快的事。。
那。。我的快乐都去了哪里？？
已经被泡汤了。。
我的人生目标是什么呢？？
希望快点离开这个世界。。
去一个遥远遥远的地方。。
留在地球很辛苦。。
真的很想快点去天堂。。
可是。。
不懂能不能进天堂。。
我这个人做了那么多坏事。。
每件事都令上帝不喜悦的。。
希望上帝能Forgive我。。
让我进入天堂吧。。
只有天堂才能得到快乐。。
真的很希望能早点得到这个快乐。。
我的心脏开始脆弱了。。
真的很弱。。
不懂为什么。。
这几天心脏都很不爽。。
不能做运动了。。
我会喘气。。
以前所做的运动都是白费了。。
啊。。
为什么会这样？？
我要运动。。
我喜欢运动。。
希望真的能天天运动。。
可是。。
这个梦想是不会出现的。。

21/11/2010

2010-11-21T01:09:00.003+08:00

今天是米亚和龙的生日。。
他们的生日肯定去Clubbing。。
我今年的生日会如何度过呢？？
真的不懂咯。。
希望我的朋友会给我惊喜吧。。
去年受到Neckless。。
三位朋友买给我的。。
在我的人生。。
生日是那么重要吗？？
我不觉得咯。。
我在我的生日那天。。
就觉得我又老了。。
一年一年的这样度过。。
再过几年就当爸爸了。。
再过几年就当爷爷了。。
再过几年就睡棺材了。。
这就是人生。。

PhotoShoot [Insect]

2010-11-20T14:24:00.005+08:00

Nyamuk...

Ant...

Ant...

好好看的一部戏

2010-11-19T02:43:00.003+08:00

刚刚才看完这部戏“老牛与嫩草”。。
真的很有意识的。。
很感人。。
我看了这部电影过后。。
就觉得真的要珍惜身边所有的每一个人。。
就好像那个老人进了医院两个月了。。
想见他的儿子。。
可是他的儿子就是不要老看他的爸爸。。
只为了赚钱就不理自己的爸爸。。
真的很羡慕有女朋友或男朋友的人。。
每次在城市都看到一对一对的时候。。
我就问我自己。。
我的另一半呢？？
我的另一半几时会出现呢？？

心情不好。。

2010-11-19T00:01:00.002+08:00

今天，
老师告诉了我们的成绩。。
很多人FAIL。。
只有三个人过关。。
我呢就不过关了。。
妈的。。
五分都不给面子。。
下个星期要从考。。
最后一次机会了。。
他又不跟我说什么错了。。
臭鸡蛋。。
很讨厌啊。。
真的不想读书了。。
讨厌念书。。
真的很想很想哭。。
没心情在写下去了。。

another day do nothing...

2010-11-17T00:28:00.002+08:00

today..
not much of fun..
this morning went to school and talk crap with friends..
and then..
one of my old friend came also..
and talk Chinese with him...
but he's not very good in Chinese..
so i teach him some word..
lol..
like example..
girl = 妞
sex with wife = 洞房
then forgot already what else..
lol..
after that..
around 3.30pm..
i meet john at the city..
and we go to hang around..
after that around 4 ish..
my stomach start struggling..
then we go to japanese restaurant n eat sushi...
we never try at that shop before...
so just have a try..
i like the wasabi..
hell nice lo..
but the food at there...
hmm..
not very nice..
but yeah...
still can eat..
haha..
after that..
go n buy bubble tea to drink..
and after that go n look for Ricky..
he's at the city at that time..
so just catch up n talk crap at there..
lol..
AND AND AND..
important thing is...
3 of us looking at GIRLS...
like a crazy WOLF..
hehe...
that bloody john..
saw us looking at the pretty girl..
then he's like whistle at her..
lol..
then Ricky n me like..
'fuck man, what the fuck u doing that'..
lol..
after that..
forgot ady..
in the night time..we went to TimeZone for play car racing..
haha..
enjoy before the exam start..
lol..
quite crazy ey..
so yea...
this is for today...

又烦恼的一天。。。

2010-11-15T22:40:00.002+08:00

今天，我买了一个lens。。
一个白人卖给我的。。
他的人很好。。
可是有点老。。
我和他聊了一会儿。。
哈哈。。
他是个IT专家来的。。
他的家就离我的学校不远。。
他很乐意送到我学校去。。
这个LENS很贵呀。。
两百块。。
原价。。
四百到七百之间。。
哈哈。。
那个就是在相片的最左边的那个。。
第二个东西就是拍近的东西。。
价钱八十块。。
两外两个是一样的。。
也是拍近的东西。。
一个价钱七块左右。。
两个十五左右。。
我等了好久哦。。
终于到手了。。

这两位就是我的同学。。
左边那个就叫做（Sakir)。。
右边那个我忘了他的名字。。
哈哈。。

今天我就是这样在学校写字。。
因为桌子都满座了。。

看到这些就流口水了吧。。
哈哈。。
我的午餐。。
SUBWAY。。
棒极了。。

妈的老师。。
下个星期考试了。。
现在才叫我们做ASSIGNMENT。。
有没有搞错？？
一个星期要做完。。
干你娘的。。
不懂会不会来的极做。。
啊。。
显阿。。
去年也是这样。。
今年也是这样。。
鸟的。。
真的不想念书了。。
真的不想再Fail了。。
救命呀。。

琪琪送我的礼物。

2010-11-14T23:48:00.002+08:00

还记得她曾经告诉我说。。
他的手指受伤了。。
我问他为什么呢？
她就是不要跟我说。。
在我遇到她的那天。。
我就看到她的十只手指都受伤了。。
原因就是她做了这个Scraf给我。。
她很用心用了两个月的时间去做这个Scraf。。
琪琪。。
真的很感谢你。。
为了这个Scraf而令你的十个手指都受伤掉。。
这个Scraf真的很温暖很舒服。。
还有我们的名字。。
都已经两年了。。
我都不舍得用。。
我怕会Dirty掉。。
我会把这个Scraf给保户好好的。。
应为这是我的第一个女友送的礼物。。
我会好好的珍惜。。

我的心声

2010-11-14T16:49:00.002+08:00

好几天没看到咪亚上网了。。
有点想念她。。
不懂为什么就是不想跟别人聊天。。
几乎每一次上网就看咪亚有在线吗。。
可是她就是不在。。
可能又去城市吧。。
我真的很想找她。。
可是我的电话没有钱了。。
要等到17号才能用。。
妈的。。
考试也快到了。。
我都还没预备呢。。
过了今晚我就要念书了。。
最讨厌了。。
我不爱看书。。
很想放弃念书而去找份工作。。
现在这份工很不好。。
很想辞职哦。。
为什么我的命那么苦。。
是不是上帝在玩我呢？？
在这世上没有人能了解我。。
没有人懂我要的是什么。。
连我的家人都不相信我。。
3个好朋友都分开了。。
朋友一个一个的消失。。
真的好孤单。。
每一天过的孤孤单单的生活。。
天啊。。
你为何要这样玩我？？
真的很想回去过去的生活。。
以前的生活比现在好很多。。
至少还有身边的每位朋友陪我一起度过每一天。。
陪我打篮球。。
陪我吹牛。。
陪我去跑步。。
陪我去喝茶。。
朋友们。。
好想念你们哦。。

超无聊的一天。。

2010-11-12T20:58:00.003+08:00

刚才，老爸和老妈在看一部香港戏。。
不懂叫什么名。。
我就陪他们看了一会儿。。
那么巧就讲到爱情了。。
原来我才发现到女子很缉私的。。
要什么就一定要得到。。
就是没想过男孩子的感受。。
我现在终于想通了。。
还是单身比较好。。
自由自在。。
想做什么就去做。。
要去那里都可以。。
唉。。
真得好累哦。。
昨天晚上睡不好。。
作恶梦。。
不止昨晚而已。。
但几乎每晚。。
不懂为什么。。
真的很想可以睡个好觉。。

无聊的一天。。

2010-11-11T23:58:00.003+08:00

今天，当我交我的Assignment给我的老师时候。
他看了之后很不满意。。
他叫我重新做过。。
我真的不懂为什么他会叫我重新做过咯。。
辛辛苦苦做了两天，他既然叫我重新做过。。
幸亏有我的朋友在。。
他帮了我不少忙。。
他还给我那些LAB的相片。。
可能老师要那些相片吧。。
我在两个小时之内把那些三个Assignment都做完了。。
就这样交给他。。
他也没有看就这样跑了。。
然后呢。。
我和Ricky就去CITY吃日本餐。。
不懂为什么今天那么多华人在CITY那里。。
咳。。
晚上，朋友带我去那些不三不四的地方。。
去看脱衣舞。。
真的好无聊哦。。
都不喜欢看那些东西。。
妈的。。
都不懂为什么我的朋友那么喜欢去看。。
咳。。
想念米亚哦。。
今天没看到她上网。。
可能又去城市办事吧。。
给她个短信可是她没回复。。
不懂是不是电话没有钱了。。
真希望能和她聊天。。

好想哭。。

2010-11-10T03:42:00.002+08:00

还记得米亚说的那句话。。
他听了我的blog music他就哭了。。
刚才我自己听了也很想哭。。
不知道为什么今晚好像不想睡觉。。
我的头脑一着不停的转。。
怎样才能停下来？？
这首歌是我的最爱。。
‘死了都要爱’来自‘信了团’
我的blog也有这首歌呀。。
第一次听着首歌就爱上了它。。
可能内容很适合我吧。。
心里总是很多心事。。
不懂可以跟谁分享好。。
以前有Sandy可以分担我们的心事。。
可是，她现在不能上网了。。
不知道何时才能上网。。
真的很想跟她聊天。。
哈哈。。
还记得第一次打电话给她。。
是她在睡觉的时候我打电话给她。。
那时是三根半夜了。。
好像是凌晨一点。。
我们就聊到四点早上。。
哇。。
好像不用睡觉那样。。
哈哈。。
应为那天我不开心。。
很想找人聊天。。
所以就打给她了。。
前几天我有打电话给她。。
那天她在槟城那里。。
应为她的阿姨进了医院。。
忘记是什么病了。。
不懂现在如何呢？？
妈的。。
我的脚流血了。。
不聊了。。
要去止血。。